This is a true story. It is not the
Romeo and Juliet of Shakespeare. But it is not the fiction.
Perhaps Rabindranath wrote the truth in
Woman Unknown.
It is about a boy fell in love to an unseen and unknown girl. It started when I created a facebook account in 2011. And this story too started since then only. It started when she sent me the friend request. I was excited and nervous. She was in vacation and I too Vacation. We chatted spontaneously. I became mad since the first sight of her photo. But I am a meek boy who can never express what I feel. I wanted to propose her.
But, how? When?
I experienced the rhythm of crush for first time. It is so strange. It is so beautiful. Sometimes, you can see her tapestry dancing in the air and sometimes blowing around with the gust of wind. Rattles of leaves and shatter of papers whispers her name. And her name sounds more harmonic than the music. It happened to me. But I don't know whether it is true or no!
We created an account in kuenselonline.com and chatted thus:
Me:
how are you?
Lhazin:
hey, is that you?
She wrote so, might be she couldnot believe me for we both succeed together. Though I couldnot write it in facebook message but here I wanted to say that I love her. I accumulated the courage of courage but I could not. I did never proposed a girl so, my friends called me
chaka.
It becomes very memorable when you are the only one to walk alone in the road.
I asked her Mobile Number but could not even message her. But it was hell-turned-heaven to receive her sms. I was tremendously happy that I jumped high and ran here and there like a madman. Love is not blind but man in love is blind! Then, we remained in contact through messages. I insisted to call her but she didn’t agree. So, I didn’t force because I thought that she could be least interested to hear me. But once again, towards the evening when I was little elevated with the beer, I smiled again to receive her call. I don’t know what she felt but for me that day is unforgettable day in my memory lane. I smiled whole night. That night was the most beautiful with princely moon seated upon the silver cushion. I felt that she too has a soft corner for me. I don’t really mean she has, but I felt so. Her charming voice still echoes fresh in my ears.
I called her and we talked for hours and hours. I tried not to frequent my calls but did atleast twice a week. I talked about her to my big brother. He was happy too.
I asked her to submit my document to Madam Tara Limbu, the journalist at BBS as I was in village. While taking through phone dictating what to write, I was all in fantasy. My brother was near me listening to her. He appreciated her a lot because she was soft-speaking and frank girl. Don’t be surprised her photo is the wallpaper of my mobile. I deeply look at her every moment and finds her more and more beautiful every day. I love you not that you are beautiful but you are beautiful because I love you.
Sunny shone bright, and flags fluttered beautifully outside. I was checking my mail gazing out through the open windows. She left this message:
"
hey… r u logging in hea…n posting…hate being away from home…"
It is a simple message but it was profound for me. Instantly, I posted two things in discussion forum on the day. But I did never proposed her through the phone. By that moment, she surely knew that I started loving her. I replied her,
" it is not a big deal to be away from the home mey na…but m sad being away from u"
Then I told her that my leaving date has been preponded. I am moving to India to pursue my further studies under Government Scholarship. She was already in Sherubtse college. I called her frequently and was inspired for she speaks so soft, so sweet, and so beautiful! She wrote thus in my inbox:
"
u vl miss home hehehe…"
She had said earlier that she would call me when I am leaving. It touched me more when she told me that her mobile is not functioning but would call me borrowing her friend's mobile. I was so happy. But she didn’t call me. She might have forgotten! It was on 17th September that I was in Bus to phuentsholing with my friends. We would leave Bhutan on 19th september. I tried to call her, but her mobile was switched off…ahh..what shall I do? I tried every minutes and yeah, god answered me. When I reached near Phuntsholing, I called her and she was there, but could not hear her due to the scream of over burdened Bus. I messaged her telling that I would call after ten minutes. But I could not as bus didn’t reached the destination. She messaged me telling that she is waiting for my call. If earth is heaven than it was on that moment!. As soon as I reached Phuntsholing I went to one corner and called her. We talked for more than half an hour. I sang
Nge sem nge sem to her. She told me that she was happy to receive my call as soon as she switched on her mobile.But I couldnot tell her that I love her…uhhh.. I am going to India!
I asked her to keep her mobile switch on after 4 pm on next day and she did. I talked a lot with her. I asked her, “
Do you have your boyfriend?” she said “
no!” it meant a lot to me. It meant a air for breathing, water for fish and sun for day. As we ended our call, earthquake, caught my breathe. I was on attic of hotel Moonlite. I ran all way down and called her to ask her safety. But I only know how sad I was to know her mobile was switched off. But I left message in the facebook, however, she never replied me though I checked my account every day.
"Sorry for I irritated you. Perhaps, i have been blind,so blind for what,I don’t know. You distanced me but I would take this time to say something before I go dumb. When I said “I love u” I promised I would
kabhi alvadha na kaha na, but I have to do it today for you failed to understand me n I failed to convince you. You thought I am a mad, perhaps, cyber villian. Sorry I made a mistake to dream of holding your hand…sorry, it has been my mistake to rejoice for having you. After all why did we meet…talked.. and chat with eacother? It would have been best for if we never meet..never talked…never messaged. In first sight, to decorate you in my eyes has been mistake…to expect love-filled heart from you has been a mistake…sorry for all things that I did to you…I would love if u never reply me…so don reply me….let it be my cry in the endless abyss..sorry for I took so long to explain..bye.." I wrote it after some misunderstanding which I do not want to disclose it.
I cried a lot. I lost the diretion. I became mad. I never wanted to let her go. But I wrote thus because I wanted to forget her. I wanted to go far away. But she replied, "I never heard the word..you never uttered it..anyway I am sorry, I m big_____, fill up that for me…aaa…o plez!!tell me ua kidding!! (am I that bad, that you have to go as well…ok fine go away..shuu!!!"
She said that I never uttered and she never heard me. It is true. My friends request me to tell her. But I didn't tell her since now. Rather I would wait for some days and surprise her with what I am doing now for her. Nothing so special but something that I dream since my childhood that I would do it for the girl to whom I first love.
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